One good thing about music...When it hits you, you feel no pain.
~Bob Marley~

"God only gives you what you have the strength to handle....sometimes i wish he didn't trust me so much."

I wanted a perfect ending...Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowng what's going to happen next.
~Gilda Radner~



New Moon

Monday, September 29, 2008

A little more info

I don't know much more, but they are flying Dave out and putting him up in a hotel. He will fly to Kansas City October 15th and then go to his screening on October 16th. Pretty much, if he isn't disqualified (and there isn't a very good chance of that happening, I really hope I'm wrong though) he will leave on the 16th with his re-activation orders.

I keep catching myself randomly crying, but I have to stop myself before it gets too bad because I don't want to bum Dave out anymore than he already is. I'm terrified. I thought I was done with this, I thought we were done with this, and I don't want to go through it again.

We've done it before, him being gone, but its different now. We are married first of all, we just bought a house, and I don't do well when I have to sleep by myself. My hair falls out (literally), I don't sleep but a few hours a night, I freak out over the smallest things, and I am never calm. I always feel like I just shot caffeine into my veins, like I'm jumping out of my skin because I'm always worried.

When he was gone the 2 times before, I still lived with my parents. That means that I wasn't home alone. But I can't go live at my parents if he leaves again, because we have a dog, and a yard, and things to do at my own house.

I'm just really scared that we'll have to go through this again, and I really don't want to. He doesn't either. I don't want him to have to do it again. It makes me sad for him.

Friday, September 26, 2008

My World has Officially been Rocked. Again.

So remember when I said I had some news? Well it has come back. We thought we were safe from it, but turns out we were wrong.

The ending of that some news story from April is that Cody did get recalled, and has to report to Camp Pendleton sometime in November (I believe). Dave got a call from his parent's (who are in Hawaii) neighbors saying that they had some mail for him from Kansas City. He was hoping it was his medical records that he sent for, but, always the pessimist, I knew better. All I know right now is that he has to report to Kansas City for screening for possible recall. I think that's how he said it.

We don't know if he will be recalled (trying to be positive), but I had to say it somewhere because my hands are shaking so bad right now I can hardly hit the right keys.

I tried to call him about prices for hotels and flights to Kansas City, but he hit the ignore key I'm assuming. He is either on the phone with HQ Marine Corps, or on the phone with his mom. She isn't going to be happy about this either. When we told her in April about Cody's letter and the possiblity of Dave getting one, she just shook her head.

I'll let you all know when we find out more. But the only thing I can think of right now is they wouldn't go to all the trouble of screening him if there wasn't a big chance he would be recalled. Somebody kick that though out of my head! Please!

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

My new favorite song

I've watched Catch and Release a million times before, and always loved this song. Its called What if You, by Joshua Radin

I looked everywhere and couldn't find an official music video, but I just wanted to share the song with you anyway so I found this one that someone made. Its just pictures with the music playing.

Its a great song! Enjoy!

Monday, September 15, 2008

October 3 is Lee National Denim Day



Some Facts

• Breast cancer is the second most common cancer among women in the United States, after skin cancer. It is the second leading cause of cancer death in women, after lung cancer.

• One of every eight women will develop breast cancer in her lifetime; one in 33 will die from it.

• One woman is diagnosed with breast cancer every three minutes, and one woman will die of breast cancer every 13 minutes in the United States.

• An estimated 182,460 new cases of invasive breast cancer are expected to occur among women in the U.S. during 2008; about 1,990 new cases are expected to be diagnosed in men during 2008.

• An estimated 40,460 women will die from breast cancer in 2008. An estimated 450 men will die from breast cancer in 2008.

• African Americans have the highest death rate from breast cancer of any racial/ethnic group in the United States.

• Only five to 10 percent of breast cancers are due to heredity. The majority of women with breast cancer have no known significant family history or other known risk factors.


October 3 is Lee National Denim Day. My company has a team and would love it if anyone who could donate would. If you donate to the cause for the fight against breast cancer you get to wear your jeans to work on October 3rd!

If you want to learn more go to DenimDay.com. If you would like to donate to our team, click on the 'Find a Team' link in the top right hand corner and our team number is 222195. You can donate under our team name, Founders Fundraisers, or you can just donate without a team name.


Just a little info for anyone who cares!




Why be subtle? :)

Thursday, September 11, 2008

September 11, 2001




I was sitting on the couch in the family room, eating a bowl of frosted cherios, watching tv. Whatever show I was watching just stopped, and the "BREAKING NEWS" flasher showed up on the screen. It showed a building I'd never seen before smoking and burning. And then they were both smoking and burning.

My mom came in and told me my ride was here. I got into the Gayheart's green van with captains chairs and rode in silence all the way to school.

I didn't know what was happening, I didn't know what those buildings were, or what it meant. Didn't know what it meant except that everything in the world would be completely changed forever.

We got to school, said goodbye and thank-you to a silently crying Ann Gayheart, and walked along with everybody else into the school. The hallways were different, not silent obviously because they were full of 7th 8th and 9th graders, but different. Walking past the office, the ladies had the Channel One tv on watching CNN. The same picture playing all the time.

Then I got to my 9th grade Geography class, Mr. Voorhies' class. He was just sitting at his desk; not crying neccesarily, but subdued, reflective, staring at the tv. It was his birthday and his only sons first birthday, and he said because of this day, it would never be the same for him.

After the bell rang and we were all sitting at our desks staring at the tv as well, he turned it off and started talking to us about everyhting that was happening. What he thought it meant, what 'they' thought it meant, what those towers were and what they meant. I didn't understand half of it, because I was never interested in that kind of stuff, but I was listening intently.

The rest of the day the tv's were in on in every class, and I'm not sure we did any work the whole day. I remember when I got to fourth period, Sewing 1, our teacher asked us if we wanted to tv left on or if she should turn it off. We all wanted it on. And its a good thing we did because I think it was then that another plane hit somewhere, I can't remember which one it was, and we were all in shock. It just kept happening, and nobody knew why.

That day changed everything, everywhere. Countries that didn't neccessarily like the U.S. before became supportive and were grieving with us; people who didn't feel particularly patriotic suddenly realized how close they were to losing it all and what that would have meant for them; these generations witnessed what would become a new chapter in history books, our generations' Kennedy assasination so to speak.

I remember one commercial that was just a shot of a street maybe in San Francisco, or Virginia, somewhere. With houses on either side of the street. It said "When they brought down the towers they wanted to change America forever." The shot changes to the same street with red, white, and blue everywhere you can see, and the voice said, "Well, they succeeded."



"Today marks the seventh anniversary of the day our world was broken. It lives forever in our hearts and our history, a tragedy that unites us in a common memory and a common story ... the day that began like any other and ended as none ever has."
~Michael Bloomberg, Mayor, New York City, September 11, 2008